Under Construction

Please excuse the mess while we get a slightly new look :)

Places to go, Mom's things to move around

Storey has been walking for nearly a month now, but it still all seems very new.  She spends her days grabbing things from around the house and wandering around with them.  This week, she has been into rearranging the baking cabinet :).

Birthday Bash: 1.04.09

Storey's first birthday.  What a day it was for her and for myself.  In the days leading up to the 4th,  I cast myself to the previous year, remembering what we were doing and how we were feeling.  I look back on my pregnancy with joy and, at times, nostalgia, missing Storey growing and moving in my belly.  I loved the feeling of anticipation upon her arrival, dreaming of how our home birth would play out and seeing her face for the first time.  I still get weepy just thinking about it.  In honor of her birthday, I would like to include an excerpt from my journal after Storey's birth:

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 It is amazing how absolutely wrong you can be about your self. This includes who you are, what you think you should be and where you feel you belong in this world.  That is not to say that I have not been pleasantly surprised with this misjudgement of myself.  Just when I thought I had it all figured out, Life seemed to throw me a curve ball before I was even ready to step up to the plate. 

My ten months of pregnancy took me from complete despair and pure fear to the most loving acceptance and joy that I have ever experienced.  Where there was doubt at the onset of my pregnancy about the interesting and unexpected turn our lives had taken, I have found a complete and settling place.  I am convinced this is exactly what I should have always been doing. I have come to a point that I cannot imagine being a part from this little girl.  I have comfortably and with great honor and pride and bursting-at-the-seams love become a mother. The title of mother can still catch me off guard, but at the same time, I cannot help but feel all giddy and warm at being called "mama".  

This little being has already taught me more in her 12 months of life than I think I have learned in my 25.  It is true that I have gone through the most extreme happiness I have ever known to the most extreme tiredness and stress I have also ever felt.  But the joy I have felt far far outweighs any of the negative, if I could even call it that.  Maybe "the not so easy moments" is a better way to put it :).  

 

There were only a few things I was sure of.  Call it a mother's intuition, but I knew that 1) I was going to have a girl, despite the odds that were against us.  Our child was eighth in a line of grandsons in my husband's family.  But early on in the pregnancy, I had dreamt of a girl, twice.  2)This little girl was going to have dark hair and a lot of it.  3) I would deliver on a cold winter's night.  4) I would not have a long and painful labor and delivery.  There were a few reasons I felt this.  I had become a regular in a pre-natal yoga class.  At the end of each practice, the instructor would take us through a visualization exercise.  Each time, I would play out the birth in my mind.  I had absolutely no idea what to expect, but I did have these positive feelings and affirmations to send to her.  I also gained knowledge and a trust in my body, baby, and Creator through Birthing From Within Classes that put my fears of the great unknown to rest.  I knew that my Creator had designed my body to give birth in an organic and uninhibited way.  To me, this took the form of a natural child-birth at home with midwives and my husband by my side.  I also trusted this living child in my womb, plain and simple.  I had this feeling that she knew exactly what she was doing. She had been doing it beautifully for ten months, and she would come out when she was good and ready. 

 
I will resist posting my entire birth story here, but as most of you know, Storey was born in our bedroom, into the loving and protective arms of her dad with our two amazing midwives.  

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For her first birthday, Josh and I invited all of our favorite people to celebrate with us.  Storey had over 40 people surrounding her that day!  I was so elated and a bit emotional and so thankful of the people in our lives.     

Storey's buds

Storey with her Poppi and Great-Granny

We kicked off Storey's second year with PB&J sandwiches, hot chocolate, and a delicious chocolate cake that Josh baked on a chilly Sunday afternoon :)

First Christmas(es)

One thing this year has shown me is that our family has all that we need.  We would not have been able to get through this first beautiful year without our family.  

We thank You.

Our Christmas festivities began on its Eve with my dad, his wife, Stacy and my sister, Kylee.

A gift from Storey's Great Nana in Canada--it's a rocking chair!  It is a hit!

Christmas Morning:  Storey woke us at dawn to start our day.  

Josh always begins our Christmas with a reading of Christ's birth.

Christmas evening was shared with my mom, step-dad and Kylee.  Storey and Nani play with a new Melissa and Doug puzzle.

The ladies:  Storey is so lucky to have her grandmothers and great-grandmothers (on both sides) in her life.  Featured here is Storey's Great Grammy.  I am proud to say she is 93 years young.  She has been a huge part of my life as she took care of Kylee and me growing up as my parents worked. Storey is Great-Grammy's "Dolly".  

*I regret that I do not have photos to share of our Christmas with the Alder family.  My parents hosted a lovely and loving brunch at their home.  It was also a treat to have our family Jeremy, Jackie and their three boys with us.

Early Birthday Gift

For Storey's first birthday, Josh and I planted her an Olive Tree in our emerging garden.  A piece of us from the womb that we had preserved  was planted at its roots.  

I have visions of her reading her favorite books and daydreaming under its shade.  I look forward to watching them grow and change together.  

*Editor's note:  This post was actually begun over a month ago, but was never completed to upload.  In the spirit of better late than never, I decided to continue with the post and pick up where my blog has been tucked away and forgotten

A Winter Garden Project

Walk the Path I have cut for you..

DAY 1:  Josh and I have been dreaming of a front garden for quite a while.  We have longingly looked out at our front-yard envisioning a space we can enjoy as much as our back-yard.  Finally on Sunday, we got to work!

The plans include a small crushed-granite patio with seating area, a mini creak for rain drainage, luscious green grass for Storey to play on, and a yard full of tall plants, herbs, and native flowers in the Spring.

Storey and I taking many breaks to snack  

Our Nani came over to hang with Storey while Josh and I got to work.  They shared a walk around the neighborhood as Storey caught a nap in her stroller; her little feet hanging over the side, the sun kissing her toes.    

It was a good day and it felt good to be working the earth, under a warm sun, with dirt under my nails.  I can hardly wait to see How the Garden Grows..

  

*pleasures, of the simple variety

just about the time i feel myself wanting more than what is right in front of me, i find myself needing perspective and needing to go to those things that simply make me happy. i refer to them fondly as my *simple pleasures:

National Public Radio

Bird-watching

Card-making

Resale shops

A blanket under the trees in the garden with Storey

Walking the 'hood

Discovering new music

New soap

The scent of my daughter

Josh's home-cookin

My indoor plants

Sweater weather

Picking veggies from the yard

Tuesdays at the Park

Parties of three

Steamy cups of Yogi Tea

Completing a blog entry!

*what are some of your simple pleasures that keep you centered?